Another love story.

Is it possible to get together after fight? Yes, I think so. We were argued about their future for several times. But we both know that we don't really have any future due to some reasons which can't be solved during this period. But why we keep quarreling with pumpkin again even we have this common consensus?

"Where did you park your car?" he said. I said that I parked the car at next block. "What's problem?" I ask. "No, I just want to send you to the parking lot in order to confirm your safety."he replied. We don't have much words on the road. I just wonder why he want me to go home so early. Doesn't he know we just be together less than three hours? Or he has another meeting later? I think so much about his next step. Maybe he just wants to give me a surprise or anything else. But nothing was happened. Later, I drove to home after said goodbye. I don't understand what's wrong with us. And he just said: nothing.

The question"s" are the reason why the couple has the argument. This side has more questions, but the other side that never give any positive responds because of understanding each other. Never tell your lover that I though you understand me. Because I don't know everything if you don't say anything.

A short story about love.

You said that you will give me your love slowly because you know how to love a person now. So I don't complain why I never feel your love strongly when we are being a couple. And I believe that you will bring me a different and special feeling about love. Then I open the circle where closed me from the injured of love last time. I told myself, you're the one and last who I want in my life.

Several year has passed, we have our own memories and tears. I am so glad of having you. And you stand by me to pass through the time that felt the worst period. But now, why we can't find out our unspoken consensus even we still love each other, and I also realize that you afraid of saying about yourself. You said you need time to consider about this relationship. But do you hold that we still can have the same attitude for our love as before if you still want to keep it? Or you just want to find some reasons that won't hurt the other side if you don't want to? What's wrong with us? I wonder the best way is keeping our own duty and leaving alone each other. Maybe it's the best way to keep friendship or maybe not. Undeniably, it's the best to protect someone who you want to protect.

But the words in my deeply heart are I believe we can solve any problem if we still love each other.I love you. And you?

Man proposes, God disposes. week 42

Everyone has right to live, but what situation will cause a person to lose right to control his or her life? The story happened last February. The patient, my father, had gotten a cancer after examined. His doctor in charge hoped we could accept to remedy our father in negative therapy way due to cancer last stage. I accepted the doctor's suggestion after discussed with my family members. At last, he was died with our blessing next two months later.

The cell phone rang while I was going to bed. My father complained to me about bad service of the Mackay Memorial Hospital, and then he told me the reason why he went to this hospital. He got diabetes, and it caused his weight kept decreasing. I asked him never to touch the sweet foods and control the calorific capacity. Then he hung up the phone after exchanging a civility. I found the blood sugar machine from Internet when I worked in Shanghai during this period, and had my friend to send it to my father next day. I asked him to record his blood sugar index every time, so that he could provide the report to the doctor when he returned to examine. Unfortunately, his blood sugar index was always over 250 degree even he controlled appetite very well. He was sent to the hospital when he fell down in a swoon in the bathroom.

My mother called me sadly and asked me to come back to Taiwan because of father's illness. I handed over my work to the colleagues in Shanghai and flew to Taiwan right away. My mother told me that my father got the liver cancer, and his cancer is the fourth stage when I arrived to the hospital. "It's not real." I yelled. Sadly, every single word from her mouth was absolutely authentic. The tears were dropped from my eyes, and it seemed that I could hear the sound of them dropped to the ground.

After that, I have checked with several hospitals if they have any opportunity to save my father's life. Unfortunately, they can't provide the target medicine to the person who even got the liver cancer in the fourth stage. Another word, his efforts were all in vain to take the current medicine. I was frustrated by their rejection. The doctor of Chang Gung Hospital suggested that we could consider buying the target medicine by our own. But it costs NTD 250,000 per month for such kind of medicine. Even though it could not save him, and it just could extend his life two or three months longer. It's totally beyond our imagination that we still couldn't help him to survive even though we spend our family fortune.

At last, we had no choice but to agree with the doctor to treat him in negative therapy way. It was miserable that I couldn't do anything for my father nor to share his pains. But my mother told me, "Man proposes, God disposes. Your father will live in our mind forever and ever."

LIVE IN A SUIT!

I really don't understand how to invest the stocks and foundations. I was lived in a suit again. My friend told me one stock will be increased from 32 to 90 three months later. According to this reason, I bought one set of this stock. At beginning, the rate was went up from 32 to 40, I sold one set and felt very happy due to earning eight thousands dollar. And the nightmare was coming. I saw the rate was increased step by step till 48 dollars. Then I bought it again in NT$48. And I prayed it could keep increasing. But the rate was decreased while I bought. It's hard to believe it. My friend told me you might buy another one once it decreased to a hold point. Therefore, I bought another one when it cost 36.8. And guess what? The rate was increased to 38.6. I felt so glad due to the increasing. I think that the spring is coming again, and I can cover my lost very soon. Unfortunately, it was fell from the next day from 38 to 32. Somebody could tell me what's going on? I really want to kill myself. I check with my friend about this matter. Then he just left one statement "Never hear any side-street news to invest the stock." Now, I am still living in this suit and wait the securer to save me.